*Asteria: On the Fracturing of Consciousness
“The creator being is a point of consciousness in a sea of many perspectives.
The creator being is like a telescope that has stretched farther than all other points of consciousness. The creator being is an investigator.
The creator being learns on behalf of Source, the ever expanding, pervading totality of all points of consciousness as one.
When the creator being comes down into the physical dimension there tends to be a lot of suffering. There is a fracturing, a splintering of consciousness that occurs over and over here in this realm. As children we suffer deeply when we are taught to cut off pieces of ourselves in order to fit into society, to be labelled as normal, productive and conducive to this human society. But this is not humane. Because this was not the intention of Source and you are Source. You are not intended to be a cookie cutter race. We are indeed likened to every other being in the galaxies as we write our stories ourselves. We struggle against one another in vain of our existence not noticing that we are the totality of consciousness itself.
The fracturing of consciousness is like this:
You are a timeless being but you have signed up to the clocks here in the third dimension for the duration of your life.
When growing up in a society, in a human family that does not have your interest at heart but only the desperacy to be and remember or recognise sameness, you are forced to cut off edges of your complex self. As you grow, in every moment, you are knifed at the side by the moments where your heart says, “Yes” but your parents say, “No”. When your heart says, “Go!” but your parents say, “Stay”.”
When we grow in this dimension we are so dependent on our parents to love us and keep us safe that we end up cutting off pieces of ourselves in order to keep their approval. This begins at an early age, often even in infancy. It begins whenever we learn that their love is conditional upon their approval… or rather, that when we begin to see that it is synonymous.
This is not to say that all families or parents are bad or are always doing a bad job. This is a comment on the emotional suppression that has pervaded human consciousness for many generations. We as a society seek approval and acceptance. Society aims for and exists in hopes of achieving sameness. On a more microcosmic scale, this seeking can be seen in families. We/I bring up parenting because that is where we are first introduced to this profoundly emotionally ill society. We are taught what is ‘acceptable’ and what is ‘unacceptable’ in our early years.
One of the major things we are taught is that it is more acceptable to turn off our emotions, to do things we do not want to do, to say or pretend things that we do not feel within our lives rather than risk the rejection of society based on our lack of sameness – our not feeling the same, not being the same.
We see it when the parent says, ‘Calm down! Stop please!’ when the 10 year old child is running around a toy store whooping or giggling because they’re about to get their favourite toy and this fills them with joy. In that moment the child is taught not to share his or her joy because it is assumed and exemplified by the disciplinary action of the parent that society and the parent will reject them if they continue to do so.
Or, perhaps, there is a child at 9 years old who grazes their knee at the park and the parent says, ‘it’s not that bad! It’s okay; you’re fine, stop crying now.’ In this moment the child is taught that crying and sadness is something that must be stifled as soon as it comes about.
We are taught from a very young age that it is not okay to feel how we feel.
And often also that negative emotions should be replaced with positive ones. This can be seen in the scenario of the grazed knee when the parent moves to making the child feel better before the emotion has naturally passed by perhaps saying something like, “Stop crying, give us a smile!”
Many times we are taught either a) that the emotion we are feeling is just plain ‘wrong’ I.e. in the scenario where, ‘it’s not that bad!’ is stated and b) that expression of emotion, particularly negative emotions, is not okay i.e. ‘stop crying’, ‘be quiet’.
Of course there are rules in society for a reason; there is a reason that the child should be a bit calmer and not run within the toy store. For example, maybe the parent is worried that the child might run into something in their excitement and become injured or cause damage to the store. The issue is not so much that the child is told to be quiet; it’s not to say that discipline is not valid in this instance and not okay. The issue is that it is not explained that the emotion is not the thing that is being disapproved of and that there are valid reasons (risk of running into something/injury) for asking them to feel their excitement in a quieter way. Children live very much in the moment and take things at face value. When you tell a child who is feeling and exclaiming joy, ‘calm down!’ all they may hear is the disapproval. They don’t yet have full awareness of the full reasoning behind a parent making that request. Unless the parent consciously, blatantly approves of the emotion and explains the full reasoning of the request, the child is left with a lack of approval from the parent and various conclusions can be drawn like, “it’s not acceptable for me to express my emotion” or “when I’m happy mummy doesn’t love me”. These conclusions can then exist and remain as what are known as negative ‘core beliefs’ – negative, unhelpful beliefs about the world that permeate our being and act as our point of attraction for everything we manifest in our lives until that belief is consciously disproved and/or transformed.
This is also the birth stage of what are commonly known as emotional ‘triggers’ that cause ‘overreactions’ in us as adults. We often ‘over’react to anything that reminds us, or ‘triggers’ us into, on some level of our consciousness, remembering or re-experiencing our past moments of emotional suppression.
When we as children (and even in adulthood) go through experiences like these, where we make the decision in such moments to suppress or change the way that we were originally feeling in order to be more acceptable to our parent or society, we not only adopt these unhelpful beliefs or conclusions, but we also quite literally abandon the part of ourselves, the aspect of our consciousness that was feeling that original emotion. It is literally a fracturing of consciousness. Whilst the rest of our being continues forwards in time, there is a part of our consciousness that remains stuck in that moment of abandonment. Because the truth is that we cannot, with our complete consciousness, move forwards in time without first feeling our emotions fully. This is our basic design.
We were designed to feel, and feel fully, tremendously, beautifully, wholly, miraculously, breathe and then move forwards, taking the lessons we learnt in that moment of feeling deeply with us. It is through feeling that we become more and it is through suppression that we teach ourselves to believe we are less.
*This is a channeled message from my Pleiadian and higher self aspect of consciousness who goes by the name, Asteria.